I HATE THE IDEA OF DEATH

In my almost fifty years I have lost people and it never get easier. It is always sad. Never helps in saying that said person, 'is out of pain or they are in a better place. Lived a long fulfilling life. Will be remembered for the life that was lived.' All this is very true. Of course it is. Unfortunately, it is all air to those left behind.

The memories help the pain. Keepsakes left behind help the pain, but the pain does not go away. It remains in a much more manageable state most of the time. When you least expect it, the pain comes back. You want to see that person again. Talk to them. Laugh about some old stuff that may not matter but still worth talking about. You want say, 'I love you. I miss you. You mean so much more to me then you could ever imagine.'  Whether a person has hundred years; hundred months; hundred day; hundred minutes or seconds. never enough.

I try not to refer to the whole process as death. It is too permanent to me. I try to call it, 'Passing'. A personal choice. To me death means gone forever. Never to exist again. I do not believe that we are gone for good. Any of us. I believe the physical world is fleeting. It changes and grows. Birth and death happening all the time. Memories shaped into reality. Better or worse nothing can last forever here. I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe in God. I believe that Christ destroyed death. That each of us is special because we possess a soul that cannot age. I believe that there is another place.

A world without end. A world without pain. I believe Heaven is a reality in another place and possibly time. Real none the less. I believe that we can see those we lost and hear them through dreams and a moment in time. They exist with God. Not everyone goes to Heaven. Some go to Hell because they choose not place Faith in Christ. I believe because to me nothing else makes since. Life is precious and is forever.

Christ is the only way to Heaven. Christ is forever. That faith makes it easier to live without people I miss because my hope is I will see them again. Until then, their memories will keep them here with me.